Monday, September 7, 2009

A story for Mabon - The Wolf and the Stag...

or Fall Equinox, happens near or on September 21. Today, the length of night time is equal to the length of daytime. At the Equinox, I become aware that this time is not the balance, or rather the order, one usually sees in nature. Nature is not really balanced. But ordered. A cyprus by the ocean grows windblown by ocean storm and wind, bowing towards the earth. That cyprus is the usual balance or order of nature - stable, poised, in harmony. ALL of nature leans like the ocean-blown cyprus towards the dark earth. But Fall Equinox is a balance of light and dark, night and day and therefore is truly an outlandish moment in time: equality, a equal balancing, an actual moment of balance. I draw on my roots in the darkness, yet revel in the kiss of summer breeze and sun. I face the darkness of the fall and winter ahead and so face mysteries. The Goddess has surprises for me in the wintry months ahead that will surpass my best hopes.

The Wolf and the Stag

In the time before the tribes of Man walked upon the Earth, the Wolf and the Stag were of the same blood. They shared the world with all of the other animals in peace and friendship.

It came that a dangerous time fell upon the land. The spirits of the South had become harsh and had baked the earth until it was hard and dry. They kept the spirits of West from bringing water to the parched land. Food became scarce and the water that remained was like acid on the tongue. When the rains did come, they fell upon the barren ground in angry sheets that gouged great fissures in the face of the world.

Stag worried greatly for his sister Wolf. She had become thin and weak and Stag knew that the snows of Winter were not long from coming to bring the world to icy sleep. Fearing that Wolf could not survive, Stag called out to the Goddess for aid.

"Great Mother" cried Stag, "Please save my sister! There is no food and she is weak and sick. She must eat soon or she will perish."

"All that you require you need only to seek." the voice of the Goddess sang in Stag's heart. "But remember, that whatever you seek, if you find it not within, you will never find it without."

The words of the Goddess confused Stag and he cried out again," Mother, the Earth is barren and the Winter comes soon. I fear it may already be too late, for had I food to give her I know not if she has the strength to eat."

"If you find food for her," the Goddess spoke in rustling leaves, "then I shall grant her the strength she shall need to eat." And then she was gone. Stag was gladdened at the hope of saving his sister and hurried off to find nourishment for Wolf.

Long and hard Stag searched, turning the ground with his hooves, moving rocks and logs with his horns, but he found nothing to bring back for his sister. He continued his quest until he was too weak to search any longer.

With great sadness in his heart he returned to Wolf and wept, "Forgive me my sister, but I have searched the land over and could find no food for you to eat."

"Then this is how it must be." said Wolf. "I thank you for your efforts, my brother. I shall think of you often and will await you arrival in the Summerland. I love you, Stag." With that, Wolf laid down to wait for death to take her. Stag laid with her and wept tears of desperation and helplessness.

Wolf had lain motionless for a long time when the Dark Goddess appeared to Stag again and said, "I must take Wolf now to the Summerland." and reached out icy fingers toward Wolf¹s still form.

Stag could bear his sorrow no more and cried out at the Goddess. "No!" he bellowed, "Do not take the life of my sister! She is kind and wise and loving of all things. If only one of us can survive then let it be her. I offer over my life to you if it will let her live."

"Brave Stag," whispered the Goddess, "Your love for Wolf is true and strong. I will grant your request, her life is spared."

Wolf's body twitched and shuddered violently and with a great yelp, Wolf leapt to her feet. What Stag saw next struck terror in his heart. For the creature that stood before him was no longer held the loving eyes of his sister. No, these eyes said but one thing, hunger!

Wolf started to move toward Stag with cautious calculation and unwavering stare. Confused and frightened, Stag could think of but one thing to do, and that was run. Into the woods Stag dashed, with no thought but run. Wolf moved with lightning speed on spindly legs and wizened frame that belied the strength of the Goddess the flowed within, her eyes fixed on her goal.

Stag ran as hard as he could but quickly tired for he too had had nothing to eat for many days. Suddenly, Wolf was upon him in a blur of fang and claw and blood. Stag kicked at Wolf and forcing her off of him and held her at bay using his antlers as a shield.

"What has happened to my sister?" he thought. "Why is she doing this?" He continued to fight Wolf off but his strength ebbed quickly and he knew he could no longer keep her away. Just as Wolf was preparing for her next attack Stag heard the Goddess singing again, "if you find it not within, you will never find it without." and in that moment he understood it all. He was to be the food that his sister needed to survive. The Goddess had honored his request to spare the life of Wolf and to take his in her stead. In her wisdom, the Goddess had known that Wolf would never willingly take the life of her brother. So she had made the hunger blind her until all she could see was food.

All of the fear and confusion was washed away from Stag and he raised himself up to his full stature and proudly waited for Wolf to come. And Wolf did come.

As he fell, Stag saw the Goddess looking on and she was smiling at him. "Thank you for the life of my sister." he thought as death came to him in a warm embrace of blackness.

Wolf ate until she could eat no more and then, exhausted, she lay down and slept. She slept for a long time and dreamt of running through the forest with her brother.

Wolf awoke expecting to see her brother by her side as he had always been. Instead, she found Stag¹s lifeless body and the memory of what had occurred nearly tore her heart to pieces.

"What have I done?!" she sobbed. Her pain and sorrow welled up in her and burst forth from her throat as a sound the likes of which had never before been heard in the world. All the animals stopped and listened to the mournful sound and heard the name "Stag" as it was carried throughout the land on Wolf's baleful song.

The Goddess, hearing this cry, came to Wolf and soothed, "Weep not for your brother, my child, for he shall live on."

"But I have killed him!" wept Wolf.

"No," purred the Goddess, "So strong was Stag's love for you that he gave his life unto you that you might live. I shall bring him forth again and again as my lover and consort and the Stag shall ever more be a symbol of the love and sacrifice of the God."

"And so I shall forever honor his gift to me." said Wolf. "Leave me as I am, thin and gaunt, for it shall remind me of his love and sacrifice. And when the night is full I shall sing his name to the heavens, as will my children and my grandchildren so that the name of Stag will live on until Wolf and Stag are no more.

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Saturday, August 22, 2009

Just an average Saturday morning....

This morning while Lakota and I were texting, I received the following message:

"BRB - I think the goats escaped..."

that was followed shortly after with the following:


"I'm back, it wasn't a goat, it was a momma pig & 8 little piglets….....

Apparently Connor didn't close up Charlotte’s cage right; it was so funny, I wish we had a camcorder - Piglets went running for the hills when we came out to round them up!

They were over near the bunker. Charlotte was eating a dead pigeon. UGH! So I carried it back with me while she followed.

Picture 8 little piglets freaking out and running back to the bushes as fast as they could. They crack me up. I caught one to try and calm it down. It screamed for like 15 minutes - now I am deaf!

Charlotte was back in the pen, and having a fit, I was of course outside the pen. We finally got them all rounded up! I should also mention that when we found them at the bunker, Attis escaped to offer some goat help (which is of course no help whatsoever!). So Connor had to catch him before we could concentrate on piglets.....

Needless to say, now the whole neighborhood is awake!"

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Time to rant - I hear it's cathartic.....

Well folks color me a little bitter today. For the first time since the Sorcerer's Stone was released in 2001, I will not only be missing opening night, but I will not be going to see it period. Why you ask? Oh a little thing called being laid-off, and being cut to a mere 1/3 of what you made before. At first things were going ok, we cut back on spending etc., but now the true ugliness of what is to come is looming over the horizon. I suppose a logical person would be more worried about the fact that I'm probably going to loose my car soon - but hey, I'm not using it anyway...I DON'T HAVE A JOB. Nor do I have any prospects for one. I'm even looking in three other states - NOTHING!
I know the economy stinks, and that there are plenty of other folks who are in the same boat. I also know that there are those in positions of power that still have their jobs, and they still get to go out for dinner, and take their kids to movies and go on vacations, etc. Why don't they have to walk in my hole ridden, sole falling off shoes for a while. Yet there they sit across from you, saying how bad they feel that they have to lay you off, and how they wish things were different. Uh-huh, if you feel so bad, why don't you take a big pay cut and keep a few folks on the payroll.
To top it all off, the other day I went to Sams Club (paid for a years membership through the office several months ago) and at the register my card was rejected because the office had revoked my membership! Mind you, I PAID FOR IT, not them it just saved me 5.00 getting it that way. So I had to either drop everything I had bought or pay 40.00 for a new membership. Cheap Bastards. I broke out in tears, I worked for that company for over 15 years - it totally broke my heart. Up until that moment I really believed that they were sorry, and that they would hire me back as soon as they could. Well, if nothing else it opened my eyes WIDE OPEN!
I am no longer young hip and cool - I don't fit into their perfect little microscope any longer.
Thanks to them, I have been reduced to giving away my horse, probably will be selling my goats to someone who wants to eat them, selling the pigs for the same thing, and asking neighbors to pick things up for us in town because even while I still have my car (for the moment) I can't afford the gas to go myself.
We did not live beyond our means, we had one car payment, no credit cards, no loans, a managable rent and utilities. No one ever told me I had better make sure and live off 1/3 of what I actually make just to be sure. I don't know one person who saves 2/3's of their income. I was not living high on the hog - I was simply living. Now I feel like I'm dying...piece by piece.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

A neighborhood visit!

Our beautiful neighbors came by for a visit today!

Click the link to enjoy the photos.

Friday, May 29, 2009

Opening Blog.....

Just wanted to start things off with a little message to all the haters out there!